Control.

Control. 

It's a very funny thing.

We all desire it. Whether its over a thing, a situation, a person, or our own life.

Sometimes control is what we need the least.  It can harm us, or the people around us.  Yet we will all still chase it.  It can make us crazy, even paranoid. It can make us say words we don't mean.  Do things we don't realize.  

Sometimes when we try to hold that control so tightly it just makes it slip all that much faster.  

Then we panic. 

We're losing everything and yet there's nothing we can do.  We grab at random, whatever is closest. No matter who or what it may be. When in reality, the only thing we should be reaching out to should be Jesus. But we are flawed and human. And that's okay.  

Lately I've been struggling with control.  Control and trust go hand in hand.  Trusting in God is honestly like a free fall. Sometimes its uncomfortable. Sometimes its terrifying. Most of the time its pretty amazing. Its like you jump off of a cliff and you don't know if the water at the bottom has rocks or not, but you know that whatever happens it'll be okay. 

So why do we have so much problem giving that control away? 

Its because we're all just really near sighted. We sadly can't see what God has in store.  

And so we try to take our own futures into our own control. Which in the long run makes it about a billion times harder.  This week I'm working on being less controlling, because it doesn't help anyone. 

Matthew 10:29-31

Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care.  And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered.  So don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.